‘Reading List’ Update

Couple of days back, I started creating a ‘reading list’ for myself. Now reading list can literally mean anything for anyone, but I’ll just explain what I mean here, in this context. I have a very short attention span these days when it comes to work and, honestly, I know I am not putting in enough effort to concentrate harder. I also know how we get lured into obsessively check our phones by the algorithms, but I can try harder to not do that for sure. For example, I can easily leave my phone in the other room so that I don’t open Instagram for the next couple of hours, right? Anyway, so I come across a lot of notifications during the day & there are very tempting articles (?) that I feel like going through in entirety. What I am trying to do when this happens – just make a note of the said article which I’ll go back to in my ‘free time’. So, this is sort of a daily reading list.

I am loving making this daily reading list to the core & there are more than one reasons for that –

  • I love making lists on notebooks but don’t get enough chances to that, as I prefer having my work related to-do on my laptop only. This is giving me a great opportunity to write down something that’s important to me daily.
  • I hate the fact that I don’t consume any news actively or any of the adult stuff, you know. This activity is prompting me to read more so-called informative stuff as well. Since I am not reading stuff on a whim now, I end up incorporating more informative reads because then I don’t feel pressured to immediately consume that info.
  • Its a mindful activity – something that slows me down on an otherwise busy day. I come across something I want to savor, and note it down to be savored in a few hours. This 2-minute thing is a joy!

What I am not liking is that I almost never end up completing my daily reading list, but I am sure that you would have guessed already. 😀

This also reminds me how much I love reading posts with back links to other blogs, where people are suggesting what they loved reading on other blogs. I need to do one of those, for random articles as well as my own old blog posts.

Would you like to share anything that I can include in my reading list for today? 😀 Do leave them in the comments!

Of loss and never getting closures

I love getting closures. I hate that movies/short films and more of such content is increasingly making it a thing to leave endings open & to ‘viewers discretion’. Like, hell no! You tell me what you wanted as an ending, dear content creator!

And what is that one thing that never gives you closure? Death. And more so, if you know just how much the person had the will to live. I broke down today watching a year old memories in my wedding video & everything about this unfortunate happening came rushing. In hindsight (of a couple of hours only :)), I feel such break downs are much needed to become more accepting of the loss. However, loss is one and closure is another. You never get this closure that this person wanted & expected life differently, he was so looking forward to getting better & going back to his life, had not given up & that was the ray of hope his near & dear ones held to. This is a fact that will not change. All we can do is hope that he is in a better place.

This break down is what triggered my post but I also started thinking of other instances of never getting closures, well, not never, but mostly. The most obvious one I thought of was lost friendships. Not the ones where you ‘lose touch’, although those can count too. But I specifically mean the ones where something just snaps off and neither of the parties ever try to fix it. It has happened to me a couple of times and it does hurt a lot.

Life would be much better with closures, but if there was a list of things where it would be nicer to have closures, death would top that list.

I hadn’t expected myself to write back here with a gloomy post, but it is what it is. Quarantine life has been so freaking busy with work life having no boundaries, that the little me time that I get is spent just being a potato. Writing never makes the cut. Monday blues hit harder and stay on till Saturday 😥 and I think I need to have a plan to make things better for myself.

82| Feb March Roundup

How have you all been?

I think the everyday a blog post thing is not happening. But, but, I am still glad that it’s forcing me to write as much as possible, which was the idea anyway.

I moved back to Delhi from Bangalore on 15th February. As expected, its been a whirlwind since then. I expected it mostly because of personal work that I and my family had to take care of post my move back. However, I was quite not ready for the hectic life that my new job would lead to. Not complaining though, its good so far. 🙂 I am hoping for a content and happy year!

Would love to hear from you, how things are at your respective ends. 🙂

44 | Of Cities that feel like Holiday

Bangalore has always felt like a holiday.

As I step into the airport with a one way ticket to Delhi, this fact hits hard in a bittersweet way.

I guess it’s a lot to do with the kind of life that you have in a city more than the city itself. I was on my own here, so I was making all the decisions for myself, be it good or bad and being alone leaves you with less responsibilities and much more time to chill. Which means I had a lot of time to explore around, thus, making it all the more like a holiday.

However, it has a lot to do with the city itself. I first wrote about Bangalore here. When I was visiting Blore for the first time as mentioned in this post, I was staying at a particular spot in Indiranagar and very casually I just happened to think – if I ever move to Blore, I want to stay in this very area! When I moved to Blore for my job in 2017, I ended up renting a place right there! The universe conspired to make it happen? So, I was in one of the best areas which made me feel really good about this city. There are a lot of shitty areas in Blore, in fact, a lot more shitty areas than the good ones because this is a very unplanned city which never really bothered to ready itself for the influx of people it gets. I have barely been to any of these, so these pretty areas that I was in added to the holiday feel. My travel to work was taken care by office for a long time and rest of the time I had to go to my base location in this area itself, so that means I didn’t really have to kill myself over the infamous Blore traffic. All in all, the gorgeous weather, beautiful cafes & bars and bookstores in my area just lead to making this city feel a lot like a Holiday.

Bangalore, you will always be special. I have only gratitude for all the gorgeous places and experiences and gratitude to the almighty for the opportunity to explore within and around in a wonderful setting. 🙂

I hope this move back to Delhi for all the good reasons is as (or more) successful and full of happiness! ❤

17 | Tomorrow

Tomorrow is a day of new beginnings. Well, beginnings that have already begun, but now on a relatively larger scale. Larger scales scare me in this case, because it involves involvement of a lot more people, with a lot more dimensions, lot more perspectives – something which is in general likely to bring a lot more judgments and opinions not only to last on people’s own minds, but also inevitably affecting other people’s points of view.

All I hope right now is that when I look back on tomorrow in future (or when I write about it in detail on the blog), it seems to be full of joys and happiness and none of these apprehensions I mentioned above.

Till then, wish me luck! (for something y’all shall know in some time :))

12| Tough Days

Do you all have those days where just nothing seems to go right? I genuinely feel amused at how this happens. Like, how can one thing go wrong in a day and then every thing seems to be going wrong? Anyone got some explanation for this? Like, I would really like to know if this is some sort of regular phenomenon.

Yesterday, I had one of those days. My day started with getting late for work and it was kind of crucial to reach timely. Then, something I was expecting didn’t happen. Then, I had to go pick up some stuff from a tailor and turned out it wasn’t completed (even though he said it very confidently that I can pick it on Friday :|). Then, I had a really big fight with someone. So, yeah, honestly, I am still recovering from the blows of yesterday. 😃 Any soothing words will be helpful.